my computer's sick.
let's just pray i'm not going to lose my 7,500 pictures of Ellie i have on it.
*tear streams down face.*
i can't think about it.
well, while my computer's been sick, ellie turned 8 months old. much to my dismay, she did NOT listen to me when she turned 7 months and just kept on growing. and changing. and melting my heart with every moment. it's getting harder and harder to leave her sweet face every day. especially now that she reaches out and says "mama" as i walk out the door.
why do i feel like a horrible person for leaving every day?
how i ache to be home.
but i am so grateful for M for making it possible for me to be at work. i honestly don't know how we'd make it if i wasn't doing this. we make such a great team. even if he makes me bonkers when he doesn't voluntarily take out the trash. (for more info on his view of this ordeal, read his most recent blog post here). but i love him. even if i don't show him enough...but instead show him more often how crazy he makes me...i love him. so much it hurts. he's the perfect daddy to our Ellie, and the perfect husband for crazy 'ol me.
so, while my computer receives emergency surgery, i leave you with this sweet picture of little Ellie i found on M's computer- i think she was about 2 or 3 weeks here. such a wiggly creature she's always been. i love how it looks like she's putting a spell on the world- and in my opinion, the last 8 months, she truly has bewitched me and M...and all of the people in her little world.