i woke up this morning at around 3:30 a.m. for a usual early-morning feeding. at around 4:00 i put E down, but could not convince my sleepy eyes to go back down, too. i walked out into our front room and heard rain pouring down on our carport. it really was going to rain on Ellie's blessing day...which wouldn't be a big deal if we lived in a house that could accommodate our families.... feeling stress creep over me like it always does, i took a hot shower, dried my hair (straight, of course, for the occasion) and let the OCD in me take over as i reorganized my bathroom drawers, checked the bogs, cleaned the bathroom floor again, dusted the front room again, checked the blogs again, and did the infamous eyebrow plucking (YUCK).
a few short hours later, E awoke, ready to eat again. after her morning buffet, i walked out to the front room....and the sun was breaking through the clouds. wasn't it just raining? i thought so...so i did a double take and looked again. zero rain. i felt peace come over me.
Ellie's blessing was beautiful. i was so worried that she was going to scream throughout the whole thing (wouldn't have put it past her) but believe it or not, as M started, she looked up at him and smiled...and just stared at him the whole time. he has the theory that things were finally as she thought they ought to be- her on her throne in her royal gown. haha, what a Queen she is. and i'm so grateful for this little queen in my life- she is so sweet, so lovely. M and i are so lucky to have her.
you know, i think sometimes life tries to swallow us in its overwhelmingness... it can seem so challenging, can't it? but then, life gives us little gifts like today- where i honestly have to double take and realize there is zero rain: the sun has been shining all the while. my life is beautiful.