Sunday, May 1, 2011
my grandpa passed away today.
my heart just sunk down to my toes as i wrote those words.
i wish i hadn't written them.
even though he's been sick for the last several months, i don't think anyone is ever really ready to say goodbye to someone that they love.
and no one is really ready to see those that they love in pain and sad due to losing someone.
i already miss his loud laugh, his love affair with food, his larger-than-life presence, and most of all, his big bear hugs.
i love my grandpa.
i'm so grateful my girls knew him, "grandpa grapes" as Ellie calls him. (for great-grandpa).
and so today i'm sad.
and i've learned it's ok to be sad.
sometimes, life is just sad.
and on sad days like today, i will cry a little.
and then i will wrap my arms extra tight around my two little girls and my hubby.
i will wrap my arms extra tight around my sister and mama and dad. and look forward to seeing my brother in a few short days. and be so grateful we have each other.
and i will wrap my arms extra tight around my faith.
because i know without a doubt that i'll see him again someday.
and that gives me more peace and comfort than words can say.