Sunday, May 1, 2011

my grandpa.

my grandpa passed away today.
my heart just sunk down to my toes as i wrote those words.
i wish i hadn't written them.
even though he's been sick for the last several months, i don't think anyone is ever really ready to say goodbye to someone that they love.
and no one is really ready to see those that they love in pain and sad due to losing someone.
i already miss his loud laugh, his love affair with food, his larger-than-life presence, and most of all, his big bear hugs.
i love my grandpa.
i'm so grateful my girls knew him, "grandpa grapes" as Ellie calls him. (for great-grandpa).

and so today i'm sad.
and i've learned it's ok to be sad.
sometimes, life is just sad.
and on sad days like today, i will cry a little.
and then i will wrap my arms extra tight around my two little girls and my hubby.
i will wrap my arms extra tight around my sister and mama and dad. and look forward to seeing my brother in a few short days. and be so grateful we have each other.
and i will wrap my arms extra tight around my faith.
because i know without a doubt that i'll see him again someday.
and that gives me more peace and comfort than words can say.



Chelsie Clarke said...


I'm so glad I got to know him even though it was a very short time.

your family is awesome.

loves & hugs.

ed and kelli said...

sorry marce :( thinking of you and your family!

Ashley Myntti said...

I'm so sorry, Marci! But I am so grateful for the gospel and my knowledge of the Plan of Salvation! Love you!!!!

Jenny said...

:( i'm sorry marci. i've been thinking about your family a lot this weekend. that is such a hard thing.

i'm happy you get to go be with them this week. enjoy.

Shaylynn said...

I'm sorry Marce.. What a beautiful & honest tribute.

I think its okay for me to be sad for you, as well.

Megs said...

I'm so sorry for your families' loss. Thoughts and prayers with you during this time of grieving.

anne said...

My heart is so sad for you, Marc. I know just how you feel. And even though you know it's coming, it doesn't make it any easier. It's so good we know there is a plan and we will see our loved ones again. Wishing your family well through this hard time.

Kimberly said...

Sorry marce. Love you and your sweet family. We'll keeep you in our prayers.

Faye said...

Thinking of you - hoping you find comfort with your family being together.

Tammy said...

So sorry marci! I am so glad that the Gospel can bring comfort and peace in times like this. Let me know if you need anything.

The Hurst Family said...

Hugs and Kisses for you.

Kristy said...

Sorry, Marce. Grandparents are amazing, huh? I'm glad that you had such a loving relationship with him--the fact that you are sad means that you were special to him and he was special to you. I hope that you can remember the good times you had with him and look forward to the good times to come when you get to see him again. Hugs, my dear, sweet friend.

Reena Bostock said...

Marce I'm so deeply sorry for the loss in your family. MY thoughts are with you and your family at this time. Give your grandma a hug from me and my family. We love you and your family. Take care.

Marci Joy said...

I'm so sorry Marce. Lots of love.